Stress Sandwich

Okay, so I know I haven't posted anything for a while but I have been super busy which in turn has been making me super stressed. Not so good. I should have written some stuff to get it out of my system but I didn't have time. Now that I have a little bit of time on my hands and a paper to write, getting everything out of my system might just be the best thing for me to do.
As always, Joe is part of whats causing these stress issues, but in a weirdly off-hand way. Um. I have no idea why, but for the last week or two I have just wanted to snap his throat every time he talked. Today, I seriously got mad at him because I stepped on his foot when I was walking behind him. Like, what is that? I have absolutely no idea why that would make me so mad. I think the main reason is that I am just in such a bad mood all the time and he just goes around making stupid jokes and asking me questions. If I hate anything when I am mad or kind of asleep, its questions. I loathe questions sometimes. Loathe them. Don't ask me why. They just piss me off. So that's one big deal.
The other one is that I really just don't want to be in this relationship at all but I am afraid to break it off, again. For one thing, I'm scared for him. I don't trust him not to do something stupid. Also, I assume that I will just want him back in a few weeks anyways, so whats the point? The only thing is, its been a few weeks and I still don't want it. What does that mean? Why isn't there someone around to just tell me how I feel and what it means? Someone I can trust.
One more, you ask? This one's really bad. I'm afraid he will tell his friends not to talk to me any more. And I like his friends. They are there for me. They are turning into my friends, but I know that if he says so, they will go.
Joe is not the only thing making me stressed lately. Mostly homework and missing my family and my girl (wasn't sure if you'd be cool with your name in here) and other stuff like that is getting to me too. That other day, I was freaking out so bad I cried when my teacher said I wasn't as peppy as usual. Actually, I am really glad that he noticed. That makes me feel better. And I lost my key and wallet the other day. That was soooo bad. Actually, I think on ebig reason is that my mom hasn't been answering this new phone that she got last week. And then when I can't talk to her I kind of freak out more. Like when I lost my key, I had to call my dad. Not good. He is just like. CALL THE BURSAR PLACE! and Im like. No! I don't need you to tell me that right now. I need you to calm me down. I can't breathe and you are telling me someone stole two credit cards, my debit card, my school id, my driver's lisence, and my qdoba card?? Fuck no! That is not what I need! Yeah. So that was stressing me out. And then he checked my email. Which was kind of weird, but good in the end I guess. Then I had to immediately take my Calculus test. Which was scary.
But then I got to go see New Moon. Hit me up if anyone wants to talk about it. I'll be going again this weekend probabaly. And again and again. Ha. I think I accidentally told this one kid I would go with him and he is viewing it as a date. Not so good. =)
Wow. I am so glad I wrote this. Between this, that nap I just took, and the fact that Joe has gone home (sorry if you read this Joe. I warned you not to read my blog.) I feel much better. Now all I need is some chocolate, a pedicure, and my mommy.
Good day.


I said good day!